still too shy SeXStoRY

ive known ive been bi for 20 years and had very few cocks because im too shy to approach a guy. case in point, i found a local bi/gay sauna plucked up the courage to go which wasnt easy. inside i was given a locker and a small towel i got changed into just the towel and made polite conversation with the guy id payed. now im no george cloone but i was getting looked at by every guy there it even made me nervous. i got into a hot tub and 2 guys immediately got in with me afte 10 mins of polite conversation i got out and went to find the cinema room, sat and watched some porn and noticed a guy looking at me and he start wanking,i wanted to say shoot your load over me if you like but was too shy he just spunked on the floor and left.next i went to the sauna again 2 guys were in there one kept looking up my towel trying to see my cock i wanted him to leave because the 2nd guy was hot and i wanted to suck his cock but again i was too shy to tell him. ive had 3 visits to this sauna club and still had no cock. im slim, trim, 7" cut cock ,nice tight arse and love cocks but have no idea how to get them.am i the only shy guy who needs help ? id love to walk in and say ok i want cocks all over me NOW but i know i never will.